After what seemed to be endless hubaran ng shorts with my two bouncing sisters that really sent me to paranoia, after we emptied two bundles of jumbo cheesedogs, after we sang at the top of our lungs with our videoke, we decided to sleep to prepare to elude the early mano-kapalit-money gang who make mano and disappear after the malutong na bill was handled to them. that's how our noche buena ended. It was pretty much like the past noche buenas, plus we had more laughters this year than the previous ones. Maybe because we did not have so much to do but make fool of one another.
What made that noche buena more different is that I had a strange dream that night. It's kinda weird but it was nice.. We were dancing when my ate checked my phone and saw that I received a video message (Me ganun na ba?lam ko voice message pa lang). What was on the video? A girl at her adolescence greeting merry xmas, while browsing pictures in a shoebox. Then she sang a song with lines "I can change the world... I can change it by my smile.. I spread peace.." (I can't remember the melody) Someone took the video for her, and she was sitting on the floor while showing her pictures on the camera, still singing those lines. But I barely recognized her face. She was wearing a violet gown, like as if it's her debut with white gloves on her hands. Then she finally glanced at the camera and to my surprise, para kaming pinagbiyak na bunga. A girl version of me, only she has a fair skin, she's skinny and has long hair.. I can't understand what that dream meant. A girl lexie singing "I can change the world.." Wow. Not bad. Are dreams created by our personal imagination? Was this my feminine side? If it was, I must be a lovely butterfly. I must be a lovely girl. Watta lovely gay of me.
