CROSSROADS

Right now, I'm on a good start on my career in a government bank. If I play my cards well, a good future is up for me. Is this really what I wanted? I'm not yet sure. And I guess this what affects my performance on the training. I'm easily distorted. Short attention span. Sleepy head. I can't grasp well on the discussion. Is this really my passion? Or am I just out of focus? Classroom lecture modules are just about to end. OJT and revalida are yet to come. Will I be able to make it at the end? With my attitude right now, I'm not sure.

Ano nga ba talaga gusto ko? All I know why I chose to work for Landbank is that it's a government agency. It's not about the monetary compensation. It's as if I have to return the privilege of free education. And maybe, that nationalistic part of me back in my elementary days that I want to serve the State and the Filipino people.

But what really is my passion? Public service? I don't know. I wasn't raised of that kind of thinking but I would love to be part of the betterment of the country (cheesy, corny, whatever). I must admit, I'm still immature. No concrete plans. Not sure what I really want. Don't know where to go. *sigh*

I love cars. I love to travel (in the Philippines particularly). I want to have my own businesses someday. What would it be, I'm not sure. But it would be nice if it's related to cars or traveling. I want to have my own farm too. Grow different kinds of trees and see my kids playing around them. That's what I'm sure of right now. Right, I just want a simple life.